Sunday, December 20, 2015

Bye 2015

This year is a rollercoaster ride.

I lost a lot of people i love
And still do.
And just recently, 
i lost someone who i thought will be my best friend forever.
I was wrong.

Is it me? 
Is it my fault? 
I need answers.

Seeing others happily moving foward.
I thought i am strong enough, 
But im not
I am not

Goodbye 2015

Saturday, August 29, 2015




I am messed-up.

Friday, August 14, 2015

Past & Future

The past.

I used to write
So many things here
This is where i pour my heart out
This is where i can be myself
It was stupid of me to delete my past
Just because i don't want it to haunt me
guess what?
It still does and always will
But atleast i can have a good laugh reading my past
But i was stupid

The future.

I am scared
There are no words to describe it
I am just like a small boat
In the middle of the wide blue sea
Alone and lonely
Cold and confused
What am i doing?
I have no idea

People have their own plans in life
I have none.
I just want a happy life
Is that consider as a plan?
Or am i still dreaming? 

Past & Future

Which one is will you choose?

Even the future is uncertain,
I will always choose the future.

ps: take me away

Sunday, August 09, 2015


I don't know what am I doing here.

Tuesday, July 07, 2015


Still stalking me?
Just leave me alone.

ps: i knew you gonna post something and start calling me things again. Just shut up.

Monday, July 06, 2015


I don't know what is wrong with me

But you, 
You make my heart goes

But I will keep this feelings away.
Because I know, I am only dreaming

A crush 

ps: being emotional because my birthday is around the corner 
and all alone this year

Sunday, June 21, 2015

One last cry

I need

Just one more


ps: what is this feeling? Please just go away.

Sunday, June 14, 2015


I always believe that time will heal all wounds
I know that there must be a person that you can't forget

You know that he/she is your everything
but things doesn't work out
You broke down
You gave up

But I know, time will heal this
The pain that I feel inside will fade away
I won't give up in love and life

But I'm sorry
I gave up on us.

ps: I will keep this blog. 

Saturday, May 30, 2015


Please come fast
I want to be 24

Thursday, February 05, 2015

one day


i am never alone.
i know life seems a bit dull
a bit messy
a bit confusing

but i am never alone

i believe that one day, 
i will find that one person that could bring me happiness
not just for me,
 but for us
 and our family.

one day.

the past might be too hard for me
but believe it of not,
i survived

i miss having that person that could make me laugh
make me smile
not with his jokes or anything
but simply just by looking at his face
and being with him

one day.

ps: i know what my heart wants, and it is you.